Last night, I read this reflection written by Monsignor Massimo Camisasca on yesterday's gospel reading, Matthew 21:28-32. I feel as if this was written directly to me and my current struggles.
“I'm reminded here of the words of a song: 'Even the weight of your sin would lead you back, Jerusalem'. Even the weight of your sins would lead you back to me, God says. The whole Christian wisdom is summed up in this sentence. For in becoming man, God chose to communicate himself, not only on spite of fragility, but "through' it.
If we agree to this divine method without reservation, we can stop looking at our limitations as a reason for discouragement or frustration, and so as something to forget, to censor, and can start looking at them as stones to build on.
The whole of our lives, with all their lights and shadows, exists in order to manifest the glory of Christ (John 9:3). If we refuse this logic, life will always be a burden that sooner or later we will find unbearable.
We are frequently tempted to censor difficulties, to hide them even from ourselves. When we do that, we are diverging radically from the way that God acts with us: every detail is a matter of importance for him. This censorship is a diabolical act, which is often born of fear of another's judgment, of the fear of losing the positive image that others have of us. But our stature before Christ has nothing to do with this image, nor can it be measured in terms of the mistakes that we may make or avoid making...
So to hide your own limits, your own problems, really doesn't make any sense.
You do not find freedom from your own miseries by censoring them, but by handing them over to Christ, which is to say, by letting him embrace them.
This embrace is like the one with which the mother enfolds her child in her arms, with which the lover take the beloved into his. Indeed, it is infinitely more affectionate than these other gestures. Within this embrace, everything is taken up and directed to the one goal that makes life exciting: the glory of Christ on earth."
Monsignor Massimo Camisasca is an Italian priest who is a consultor to the Vatican Congregation of Clergy.