I have a friend who is older than me, and very wise. I don't get to see her often but when I do she always gives me food for thought.
"Do you miss working?" she asked me straight out the last time I saw her. I paused and thought, and said, "Yes, I do. But it is not for the reasons, I thought I would. Money is tight, there is no doubt about that, but we have managed to live simpler and not go into debt. I do miss my friends at work, but frankly my energy is now taken up with my children. I love teaching my youngest to read and write, it gives me much joy to see her learn. At first, I was starved for 'alone time', but I have grown use to the chaos, the unceasing chatter, and it seems too quiet when my girls are not here. The one thing I miss is recognition for a job well done."
For me, staying at home has been a lesson in humility. This is a not a place where I can get a raise, a performance bonus, or even a pat on the back. I choose to stay home because I thought it was the best decision for my children. They needed more attention, more security, and a more stable environment. Daycare, was not working out for my youngest child, she had been through too many changes, in too short a time.
However, my friend challenged me. "A+B doesn't always equal C,” she said. “Just because you are making the sacrifices to stay home, doesn't mean your kids will grow up the way you want them too. The end results don’t always equal the time and effort you put into it. Because in the end, children are their own persons, free to choose. They are not yours; they are on loan from God. They will accept God's free gift of grace or not. Their future successes and failures are not yours, they will be theirs. "
She was a career woman who decided to find a way to work from home so she could spend more time with her daughter. Her husband and she sacrificed so they could send their child to a private Christian school. Their daughter is now married, and with her husband runs a mission ministry in a low-income neighborhood. They recently visited her, and were complimented b the pastor on what a fine job they did raising their daughter, and what a wonderful Christian woman she has become. My friend told the pastor that it was the gift of grace working in her daughter, not what she or her husband had done as parents.
Talk about humility.
YES. This. It's a lesson that is constantly brought home to me.
Posted by: Carmen | 04/03/2012 at 06:40 AM
It is all worth it. Even sometimes you don't see "an end"to it!
Glad you are writing on your blog ,Mary.
Posted by: Bozena O'Neill | 04/03/2012 at 07:56 AM
So true, we do the watering, planting, nurturing, giving roots for them to grow and the rest of the maturing process is all about them.
As a mom of 'adult' children, I have learned to let go and allow God to give them natural choices and consequences and it is a BLESSING to say ... they turned out wonderful. Not without issues or heart aches at times, but they are both wonderful mature adults.
God will honor your choice to be with your 'daughters' and he will bless you in abundant ways. Praying for the journey ahead of you.
Posted by: Sharon O | 04/03/2012 at 11:12 AM
The same thing happens with our daughter. We may be ok parents, but it was definitely God's grace and love that brought her to the place she is today. She has the heart of a missionary, and only God can give that to someone. We're so proud of her but not because of us, but because we're honored to be able to have a front row seat in her life!
Posted by: Headless Mom | 04/06/2012 at 11:26 AM
I do think that a positive and moral example makes a huge impact on the end result.
Posted by: kyooty | 04/06/2012 at 06:17 PM